I am hurting!

I know I should just let go but I can't!

It doesn't feel fair as I wouldn't dream of treating someone I care for like this why don't others seem to feel the same way and can use people to suit their needs as toys, playthings...

How can you tell one person you love and care for them whilst still chasing others? (do you really and truly think I am that slow and stupid?)

I am messed up...

I am hurt...

I feel alone...

And I really don't know what to do...

Revenge sounds good but can't allow myself to be that shallow.

Leaving and just disappearing seems to be the only way out...

But can I be that drastic? Or am I just being a drama queen?